So suddenly i feel very much neglected that somehow i've lost your attention, yes that very attention you used to give me almost everytime, whenever we're together. but somehow i've lost it, just somewhere. but insyaallah, i'll hold on to us and we'll make it through together.

it's like we're on the same roof but you're there and im here? try to get me.

im trying my best to let this feeling out, so it seems like i have only this site to let everything out. :/

im feeling very much miserable since idontknowwhen.

somehow i just feel as if i lost my bestfriend in you like we've said that no matter how attached we are with each other, deep down we're still gonna share every little secrets together, about almost anything. but somehow, now i just don't know why i just can't do it with you?

why? i kept on asking myself this questions repeatedly but i can't seem to find the answers.

it's like i can't let this feeling out to you cause afraid that you might find me just miserable but i just hope one day you would just understand how this feel. i didn't ask god or even anyone in this whole universe to make me feel this way now, but just somehow...you're just caught up with something else. just something else that makes me think that i lost you.

is it just me or is it really how things goes in our relationship? im not sure either.

i wished i could cry so bad and let everything out and make myself feel better but i can't. cause i don't wish for you to know anything, im afraid you might think im unreasonable, and im like totally ridiculous, afraid you'll be like ' why didn't you tried telling me what you feel? what must you hide things to yourself? dont nonsense you know that kinda thing. '

i wished i could let it out, i wished i could just let you know how hard and hurting it is to have the lack of attention from you, different from the attention you've given me through these months. it's different and i know it cause you've been pampering and i feel it so don't tell me im ridiculous. why? im just afraid. i have nothing else to say.

maybe its just me feeling superbly cranky, so i'll just take a day off from this feelings, run away by sleeping and hoping i'll much better tomorrow.

but wait a minute! haven't i been feeling these god damn feelings since like then? :/

nevermind, i'll pray for the best. help me.